back to writing..maybe

this is the place where i've dumped the weights of my conscience, processed problems and made sense of my world. but this place i've quite let alone for awhile, and there is a big, unfillable void between that time and now. there is no use catching up. catching up on six months is hard to do.
Paul recommended a very noble practice to keep one's sanity: "forgetting what is past and reaching forward to those things which are ahead..." writing contributes to that too because, with the art of the written word, my mind relaxes and enjoys refreshment from thoughts that have just lay here for awhile. Issues need to be processed and resolved and then really forgotten and moved beyond.
In our minds we take the tangible 'matter' of life and make an 'issue' out of it in such a way that is silly and unnecessary. If only matter stayed as matter in the ways we regard it, we could move past it, like walking from one street to the next.
a blog is for rambling.
i'm wanting to go to bed soon. because i can. I'm on a project! yay! i get to take some much-needed alone time to unwind and rest and, perhaps most importantly, make some extra money and get flight time along the way. Now, if my fiancee is reading this she's probably thinking 'much needed alone time?!' , as if being alone suddenly became something i need since being with her. Well, i'm fortunate that she also understands that an introvert needs to sit alone after awhile and listen to concertos and write and not hear any other human voice. Perhaps one of marriage's greatest challenges will be adjusting to being a round the clock people-person. More specifically, a her-person. But i've become keenly aware of my occasional need for quietness, motionlessness, stillness, serenity. Simply sitting here staring at letters lining up in file across the screen is therapeutic. And by virtue of the fact that i have not done this for awhile.