Mumbling on matrimony

Five weeks.
Five days.

On the scale of a lifetime, that length of time is only a blink of an eye away.
It seemed to happen all in an instant - meeting, proposal, planning. The next blink of an eye will be her fingertips grasping a golden ring and slipping it onto my finger in the presence of our friends, family and our Lord.

Married.

The idea is hard to process when i'm so close up to it. It's like looking at a planet from a telescope and analyzing it and thinking I know it, then I fly up to it til it's so close and large that it fills my whole view. Then I feel overwhelmed and mesmerized in that I really didn't see it for what it is until I got so close. I'm attached to my old perspective and almost want the old perspective back because back then i could get filled with romantic feelings then leave my telescope and do something else.
Just as we can make celestial bodies something they are not because we are so far away, so can we bachelors/ettes make marriage something they are not because we just are not there yet.
One must obtain a rite of passage, and a fuel for the fire, and a last-chance-to-abort countdown and a blast-off.
I'm discovering at this moment that marriage is very much like space travel, can you tell?

As one breaks through the 'atmosphere' of bachelorhood -earth - the rules fall away and one is free to roam and explore all these new unrestrained dimensions.
Likewise, once the momentum builds up you keep going...and going. This journey cannot be retried.
Situations have to be dealt with and resolved.
The only way off the ship is death.

I think that guys and girls differ so much on their expectations of marriage. Girls know from the start that 'this lifestyle and this guy is all i ever wanted!' guys, on the other hand, we're kinda narrow-minded. we short-change ourselves by looking forward to that short space of time that may or may not happen overnight, and and wrestle with our selfish desires to keep stuff to ourselves like money, space and time. but the more virtuous side of a guy will be a reminder of the really, really great things to look forward to in marriage...

>he only has to go out and do what he does every day at work. then come home to a sweet lady who's been cleaning his house, cooking his dinner, striving to keep herself cheery all day so he can feel that his world is really alright.
>he gets to go to sleep and is entrusted this precious human body to hold onto and keep safe
>of all the dumb things a guy can do, there will be somebody to always respect him...his wife
>even when his care for life and himself fails, she will keep caring.
>she creates a home to surround him, and she makes a home for him inside her heart too.

marriage will unveil the weaknesses and weirdness of each individual, but one can find great contentment in realizing that through marriage we can sample a bit of heaven, as well as increase our longing for God and ultimately to make our eternal home with Him.