Discerning God's will

I'm on lunch break on my fourth day of work at my new job at Dynamic Aviation. I hope my fingers will fly as fast as my thoughts are so i can get everything down on time...
Today i felt led to fast from all foods, as has been on my mind for the last few weeks. Something has been weighing in my spirit that i really need to hear from God about once and for all, so here i am fasting my way into God's presence to ask His will because i beleive that when I fast, i talk to God and hear from Him too in a special way.
I felt that the issue, which will go unmentioned, was serious enough to seek some real help from God, as people in general just have their own opinions and we all know that God has the final word anyway.
What has been weighing on my soul is God's will concerning issue X, we'll call it. I'm getting contradicting convictions about issue X, and the more i try to arrive at a resolution, the more i get frustrated, and the more i try to fight the conviction i DO NOT want to be there, the harder i have to try, either because i'm facing it with the wrong heart and weaponry, or it's staying there and prevailing because God wants it to be. So i'm searching out the will of God concerning this.
i spent my first five hours of work today just sitting by myself cleaning aircraft parts. lots of personal space, lots of think-time, going back and forth 'God is this your will or is That Your will, and why, Why, WHY would it be one or the other?' i don't like at all when i have some tugging towards an action, and no Why explanation comes tied to it; many times i find i just have to do it, then i'll know Why. however, from this same heart has come tuggings to do harm and to do good. So maybe issue X is just some great exaggeration of the 'doing harm' tug. then again, it could be a 'do this thing' and i'll know why it was good Afterwards.
So, God, what is Your will?? I don't know why, i don't know what will come of my decision of Issue X, and i don't know if Your punishment and discipline is again on its way if i do not comply with this unrelenting (but albeit, to me, resented) nudge.

In a sharp moment of epiphany, it occured to me that the word 'Will' implies a future-tense. We fear God's will because we haven't seen what it brings; God has a will for a certain situation, and if we follow it, result A occurs, and if we don't then result B occurs.
However--- and this is important --- however, nothing happens that is NOT God's will, right ? So we have a choice to do what is in our minds as being God's Will, but coming from thought processes fallible and hearts often misdirected by temptation and Satan's snares along our way...doing God's will in a situation where the right deicision is unclear becomes something of an enigma.
So...what else do we know about God's will? I think this is the kicker: God works in accordance with what He wills, but He has protocol for how He works, and these protocols are His Ways. And i think we can know His ways because they're printed all over the Bible.
I'm almost out of time here.....
The difference between God's nudging and satan's temptations and lies are the same as the difference between God's ways and satan's ways.

Let's look at God's ways....
Phil. 4:8 "whatsoever is true, noble, just, pure, lovely, good report, virtuous or praiseworthy, think on these things"
Psalm ? - All the paths of the Lord are mercy and truth
John - For God so LOVED the world that He Gave is One and only Son...
Romans 8 - There is therefore NO condemnation
Romans 8 - The Spirit intercedes..Christ sits at God's right hand interceding for us...it is God who justifies

God is the builder, restorer, forgiver, caretaker, lover, healer, hope-giver, life-maker, joy-filler.

So what WILL God do? Look above...

Let's look at satan's ways...
"the tempter comes to KILL, STEAL and DESTROY.
"he wanders around like a ROARING lion, seeking whom he may DEVOUR"


The sum of the matter, then, is to abide in God's ways, and to generate a thought environment that refuses to process any whims of destruction of ANYTHING. If it's killing, stealing or destroying - and these come in oh SO many flavors - then it ought not be in your mind. And you ought not DO it. And that is what is NOT God's will.